Reflections on 17 weeks of Pregnancy

I found out I was pregnant on Oct 4.

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IMG_5567I made it through the first trimester, and so far have learned a lot.  Mostly, stop comparing. Everyone is different, every pregnancy is different.

It’s so easy to fall into the comparison trap (with pretty much anything in life), but especially pregnancy.  This is my first time carrying a healthy baby past the first trimester.  So I’m unsure. And insecure. Am I supposed to be this tired? Why am I constipated? Is it normal to have dandruff?

But I’m trying to be as relaxed as possible, go with the flow, and let my body and mind take me on this crazy journey.

Concerns:  I’m not sure if its reassuring or scary to read about other’s experiences with pregnancy.  I am definitely trying to limit the amount of information I take in, but I have a read a few things that make me feel better.  I have concerns about gaining too much weight, not eating the right foods, eating too much sugar and getting gestational diabetes…the list goes on.

Side effects:  I feel very fortunate I have not been sick.   I have, however, had a few side effects that aren’t so fun:  backne, dandruff, constipation, very dry skin, and a bloody nose to name a few.

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First bump pic

Size:  I am no longer fitting in my pants (its been a few weeks for that), so I wear a lot of leggings and dresses.  I need to get a few more maternity pants that are my style, but am so grateful for the maternity clothes donated by a few of my friends.  Last time I stepped on a scale I think my total weight gain was around 8 lbs, but I’m not 100% sure of that (I didn’t have a great starting weight).  I do have a bit of a belly, but don’t really feel like it looks like a baby belly yet.

Cravings:  I have been eating a lot of stuff I don’t normally eat, especially during the first trimester, when vegetables DID NOT sound good AT ALL.  I have had macaroni and cheese, hamburger helper, peanut butter sandwiches, and lots and lots of carbs (yikes!).  Now I crave anything citrus.  I’ve been eating a lot of grapefruit, kiwi, oranges, lime popsicles, and sweet tarts (oops.) I have been pretty lenient about treats and unhealthy food, and definitely think I have probably added a few extra pounds that are unnecessary.  But vegetables are starting to taste better and I’m definitely eating better meals now (just need to cut back on the sugar and treats!).

Exercise:  The first 12 weeks, I didn’t want to exercises at all. I didn’t have the energy.  But since I hit 14 weeks, I have been walking on my treadmill, trying to get a daily walk in, but probably average 4-5 times/week.  Over the holidays it might have been a bit less.  I have still been going to yoga 1-2 times/week and try to stretch after my walks a few times/week.  I keep telling myself I should add a quick strength program in with weights but just haven’t gotten around to it.  I might order a prenatal exercise dvd, especially when/if I start showing more, and yoga or the traditional exercises I know to do get a little harder.

Sleep:  I love to sleep.  During the first trimester, I definitely took it easy, in fact, I watched a ton of tv and didn’t move from the couch for hours. I felt very unproductive, and maybe even a little depressed, but just kept telling myself I needed the rest.  And I slept a lot.  I thankfully am out of that funk, and have been sleeping 7-9 hours at night and occasionally getting up to pee in the middle of the night.  I believe all the sleep has kept me healthy.

Mood:  As mentioned above the first trimester was rough.  I felt very down, sort of depressed. I feel better now, but find myself irritable at times (thank you hormones) but much better. I am worried about post partum depression, but am grateful that the baby will come in June, when the days are long and there will be lots of vit D from the sun to soak up.

Overall feelings:  I’m nervous. Our lives are going to change forever. For the good of course, but its scary. I am starting to “nest” and did some purging the other night. I have more I would like to get rid of and Dave and I have started in on house projects.  We have to paint the nursery and lay the floor.  We will get most of the baby’s stuff from my sister (like the crib), but will probably buy a recliner or rocker (either for the nursery or for the living room, or possibly 2).

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I am continuously blown away at what my body is doing right now.  I can’t even grasp the fact that it is growing a human.  It’s nuts. But so cool.

Yoga Update

I have recently signed up for an online yoga teacher training course through Aura Wellness.  Yoga has been a huge part of my life for many years, and I feel like my practice will only be enhanced and improved by learning about the history and teachings of yoga.

I am at the very beginning of the course (trying to get through the first 2 books), so I don’t have a lot of report, however I’m very excited to see where this new path will take me.

Last month, I taught Yoga-tism, a class for kids with disabilities at the Autism Center at Opportunity Village.

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photo courtesy of Opportunity Village Facebook page

 

Yoga has a lot of benefits, and I believe it can be a very useful tool, especially for kids who may struggle with confidence, body awareness, social skills, coordination, or sensory issues.  Yoga teaches body awareness and body regulation/calming techniques.

Yoga is great, because it can be modified to fit any individual’s needs.  The thing I love the most about yoga is there is no comparisons or judgments.  You do what your body is capable of doing that day at that moment, and the rest doesn’t matter.

I’m excited to see where this new adventure with yoga takes me.

 

2 years?

I started this blog over 2 years ago. That is hard to believe. I’m not consistent with posts, and don’t really have a focus or purpose for the blog, but for some reason, I keep coming back to it.  Every now and then, I get the urge to write a post. So I do. And its been fun to look back over the last 2 years to see how far I’ve come.

I dream of being better about posting daily, heck, even weekly, but it just doesn’t happen.  And thats ok. Some people blog to make money. Some blog to reach out to others.  I blog to write. Writing is good for me. Sometimes I don’t feel like writing. So I don’t. But when I do feel like it, it always feels good. It teaches me to stop being so judgmental, let my ideas flow, you know..you can always go back and edit.

Just like this blog, this post has no focus or purpose really.  I have been in a bit of a rut with writing lately and maybe this is the start of getting back to it. Or maybe not. Either way, I’m pretty grateful that I have this space to just be me.

Be Present

I am really trying to be in the present moment more.  I have a bad habit of thinking about the future and making up scenarios in my head about how things might turn out.  Most times, what I have imagined in my head never comes true, thus I am spending wasted moments worrying or fretting about nothing.  This is anxiety.  And I’m done with it.  It serves me no purpose.

I have made a conscious effort to try to change my thought patterns to reflect a more happy positive life, and am seeing that when I am successful with this, my life is happier and positive.  It sounds so simple, but it really is hard.  But every day I strive for this.  Because life’s too short to worry so much. 

10 things I’m loving

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1.  the nursery is blooming!

2. the smell of lilacs

3. a break from OT, to only feel refreshed and excited to return

4. coffee

5. fresh greens from farmers market

6. dedicated, hard working employees

7. quiet mornings and evenings at the nursery

8.  our back patio

9. having our garden planted

10. the amount of unlimited support from our family, friends, and customers

The Clothes Broker

Lately I’ve been doing a lot of clothes and accessory swapping with my friends.  Its pretty awesome.  I get new stuff, but I also get to give others new stuff.  I have been passing on unwanted clothes and jewelry to women I know that might want them.  Sometimes its swapped for good, and sometimes its just borrowed, with the expectation that it will be returned.  My favorite clothes in my closet have come out of my friends’ closets.

sweater, earrings and scarf from melissa…

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shirt from melissa…
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sweater and shirt from christina..and has been passed on since! 🙂

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And my favorite sweater right now…from christina…earrings from amy hogg.
IMG_4519I love not spending money on clothes and jewelry, but still getting new stuff.

I’m a clothes broker… Let me know if you want to swap!

 

To be a woman.

**Disclaimer:  I am going to generalize about women in the following blogpost.  If this doesn’t pertain to you, you are amazing and you should ignore this..and tell me how you do it.

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As women, we have so much to learn from each other.  That’s why I love reading blogs.  Especially the blogs that are honest about real life and share valuable information about being a mom, making it as an entrepreneur, struggles with weight, how to make your own coffee creamer, etc.  We should be supporting eachother.  Always. Building each other up.  Instead, sometimes when I’m with other women, I feel judged and inferior.  Most (if not all) of this is my own insecurities (which I think is safe to assume that many other women have these same insecurities).  But I would like to change this.  I would like to not only feel better about who I am as a woman, but also inspire the other women in my life to feel good about who they are, and in turn they will spread this to the other women in their lives.  Imagine if we all were supportive of each other all the time (instead of judging, comparing, etc).  Women would rule the world.

I find it so interesting to be in a room full of women.  Most times, I am looking at the other women, observing what they are wearing, and wondering why I don’t look as cute as they do.  Every woman does it.  The comparison game.  Constantly comparing yourself to your friend or acquaintance.  That’s why we shop.  And feel like we need new clothes.  Because we see something similar on our friend, or the lady at the dentist’s office, the nice women who helped you at the bank the other day.  Boy she had on a cute sweater, I wonder where she got it.  And sometimes, if you’re brave, you’ll ask where she got it.  And then you’ll find time in your schedule that week to make sure you go online or  run to the mall to get the same sweater.  Only to find out, when you get it home, that it just doesn’t look as cute on you as it did on her.  Happens to me all the time.  And I’m learning that it happens to my friends too.  I would bet that if you’re reading this, and you’re a woman, its probably happened to you as well.

What this tells me, is that we have more influence on the lives around us than we think.

Everyone knows that a smile or friendly gesture goes a long way.  Then why don’t we smile more?  Try it, make a pact to smile (make it genuine) at everyone you see for an entire day.  Trust me, only good can come of this.  And think of all the people you have made happy throughout your day.

So next time I’m around a group of women (hello ladies night), I plan to smile. A lot.  And being real, I plan to not compare and contrast, but instead, listen and learn.  I think I’ll be surprised at what I find out.

Live Simply.  Be well.